Why I"think"I am a walk in

[ivey]

OK ......Most of this comes to me from eye witness accounts ...on the account of my mom and Dad...and my self I have not been able to obtain my med records yet OK here goes...
I was born may 1972 I was approx 4 years old when I supposedly got suddenly fatally ill my dad was in the Army stationed at Fort Bliss El Paso TX which is a Huge Under ground Base one of the Biggest in North America I heard ...I was rushed to the Military hospital I think the VA hospital there....I was dieing or this body was...there are different story's here that I remember ...there always seems to be two different stories especially when they don't want you to know the truth..I will stick with what my dad told me..He said at the point were the medics took over the situation upon arrival at the hospital they were forced to wait in a room separate from me down the hall way ...you have raise a red flag on that right away I wound not leave my dieing sons side no matter who told me to just sit and wait here....anyway my dad said that they hear loud strange noises coming from my location down the hall and loud screaming coming from me they were not allowed to see me at all ...my dad said the whole event lasted 3 days .....my question is if i was unconscious and weak and near death how could I be screaming at the top of my voice and thrashing around and such.....I don't remember anything prior to the event or immediately after ...my memories pick up about a day after I left the hospital I had deep incisions on my neck jugular on the right side both my arms near the inside elbow both my ankles towards the inside ..to this day i have the scars ....I remember crying myself to sleep every night because the stitches really hurt Bad ...My mom had to pull them out every night till they were all out....My dad said they gave me a Blood Transfusion.....the doctors said I had Steven Johnson syndrome to which a small % of people survive and the ones that do are Blind deaf and cannot function well.. My case is so rare Its actually in the medical journal ...the fact that I survived it and have very little but noticeable scaring and am healthy to this day is so wonderful to the Doctors today....I thank the heavens for the doc that took care of me I know who he is and were hes really from ...but that another story......

OK why I suspect I am a walk in ...I use that word as that Loosely Because its the or easiest way for me to explain what happened with out divulging too much personal info ....My Dad told me recently that I was a totally different person when I came out of that Hospital ....both my parents were shocked at that point they thought they had really lost there son....just think you have a beautiful son happy alive full of joy expressive loving ...and all of a sudden something strange happens and that person is a complete 180 ...and you were not allowed to witness anything that was being done ...your son comes back to you with 5 deep incisions ...A damaged eye and badly damaged skin
The point is what they said happened to me wasn't what happened .....they the doctors say that " THEY THINK" it was penicillin that caused this .....don't they do blood allergy tests before they give you a powerful medicine like that sound fishy there ...I asked my dad why didn't he sue the Army for malpractice? he said he was told not to peruse any actions against the army they basically threatened him ......In other words DON'T TALK ABOUT IT....or else!!!! Their favorite words...after that we moved around the US about 100 times my dad was not in the army anymore at that Point and yet we seemed to always be on the run I could never figure that out until now...with some detailed memories resurfacing and other confirmations I'm slowly getting a picture to this puzzle of mine... i must be careful not to allow for flights of fantasy or imaginations to get in the way either that's why I only go by eyewitness accounts and experiences and actual real memories like going to high school and graduating...something that really happened and I have the scares to prove it type memories.....

to be cont.......

[kaketsh]

Now i know why it's such a puzzle to you. First thing what might raise suspicion is, how the military doctors handled the situation. I don't want to sound like some kind of sceptic but i have some questions.

Im not an expert on childrens behavior but what kind of change in character there could be in a 4 year old kid ? (im asking cuz i honestly dont know how visible it could be)
Umm, i dont find it strange that the doc's didnt allow your dad to see what's going on. I think it's the way they do things. And according to what you said a 3 day surgery means that it was really serious. Do you know what kind of life threatening disease you had that they treated ?
Do you notice something that is abnormal with your body or mind today ? Do you require taking medication because of that ?

Do you have any memories of what happened during the surgery ?

Ok, now what i think is the following. You shouln't lock away your fantasies and imagination because the might have a clue in themselves. I know why you want to take these precautions, not to mix up facts and all. The idea behind it is that some of the repressed memories might be expressing themselves as dreams or fantasies, they wont be a direct message but might be helpful. What i think is that in order to make these things work u should allow yourself for those fantasies but also drawing a fine line between them and the solid facts.

A good thing for you would be hypnotic regression. I'd also like to have one myself, i think my mind would also have interesting things to say without the logic guardian and his censorship.

Of course the other suspicious thing is that you were told not to talk about it. Which makes you want to talk about it even more And i can say that i'm glad that you do. Maybe there will be some way to make you know for sure. I know it might be not the most pleasant thing to remember but well... the truth aint always roses.

Thanks for sharing your story. I'd be glad to hear more and help you out if i can.

[ivey]

.....the Disease caused by the allergic reaction of the penicillin is called the Stevens Johnson syndrome my dad just said I was a completely different person when It was all over...and that I had a Blood transfusion...and that I flat lined on the op table 3 times...he said there were a team of docs working on me for three days and one day a mysterious doc showed up with the same last name as mine and had the cure...and with in hours i was stable and three days up and walking around as if nothing had happened ....and I remember the time after when I was walking around wondering why everyone was starring at me as if everything is alright nothing to see here move along ...and for my follow up appointments every time I would go back there everybody would stop and stare rudely with there mouths open like I just risen from the dead ...I was like come on people what are you looking at... ever since then I always disliked going to the hospital to this day im like that....the only medicine I had to take was eye drops to this day because my eyes were damaged my body's temp rose really high and did a lot of external damage ....im legally blind in one eye but am going for surgery soon for that ...there is a big memory gap the point were I passed out on my moms bed an then walking out of the hospital a week later with horrible stitches in me ...Its weird because I just ignored the fact that i looked a felt like Frankenstein with all these cuts and stitches....it was like they didn't exist until my mom had to pull them out with tweezers most little kids will be aggravated picking at them and such nope i just played with my toys as if nothing had happened at all I didn't ask any questions about what had happen or anything i remember the doctors asking me I i knew that anything had happened to me ....I really didn't know that anything had happened I had a complete memory loss a personality fracture is the only other conclusion i can see.. that may have happened..which would explain one part of the puzzle but leaves the major part of out ...so like you said i need to consider the OOBEs and ET encounters i have had and other things ...to begin at a point...

[kaketsh]

I see now. The reason I asked what was your disease in the first place is that i thought that you were given penicilin to treat this thing so steven johnson was not the original or the first disease = the reason why they brought you to the hospital. I mean that there was a reason to give you penicillin in the first place. I dont know but... is it wise to give antibiotics to children who are so young ? From what i understand steve johnson's syndrome is a kind of anaphylactic shock that occured as a result of the antibiotic being introduced.

And yeah, i agree. The appearance of this mysterious miracle doctor was strange. And the things that he did. And what came afterwards ... that is "don't talk about this" policy.

You know what's weird ? I had a weird dream today and after i woke up i suddenly thought of what you've said. The whole walk-in situation. Well i wont say that the whole dream was connected or even a part of it... but i think it might be interesting, plus i feel like its my duty to report my sightings in the dreamworld

Basically the dream was about someone that i met on the net and we talked. He said something about a tragedy that happened to him so i guessed what could be the reason. He was kinda agreeable to my theories but didn't say it out loud, didn't point it out like "yes, this was this and that". Then he came to my cuz's house and i was there and he started doing some strange things (sorry "strange things is the most specific description i can give right now ). Umm... i wrote that "he was taking things over" in my notes. ( i leave keywords from my dreams when i wake up to remember). Then i remember that she appeared (my spiritual friend)... i think it was some kind of different dimension... and i remember that... because what he had done this dimension became accessable and i was able to switch my body with a different body. Like a mind/soul transplant and it was required for me to do this, because of the mission i was assigned to. The whole body switching was also some kind of explanation of death, that there is no real death because you can switch your body with someone else. It also was put in context with how it all works - what is the mind/soul complex, the spiritual vessel (well in the dream it wasnt in all this spiritual/religious context, it was like a normal thing to do), what is personality, how the body affects personality, that the mind is like a body for a soul, that personality is a mix of the body traits, the mind and finally the soul (or The Mind or Isness, Essence).... So i did that, i switched my body and went into a white van. Then i found myself in an ordinary looking world. You know, buildings, streets , people. Could be somewhere in the 20th century old style, all in sepia like colors. It was my mission... these people were running (from something i guess) and they ran into my direction. I was like standing in the middle of the street (out of nowhere) and i had to do something to those people... it was the whole point. I don't know what was the thing i had to do, like approach someone and i dont know... tell them something or give ? A bit of both ? I dont remember.

Well i dont know if its related or not. Maybe you will be able to see things i didnt see in there ? Or you want me to explain something about it ? Both are good for me

[ivey]

Interesting! Taking things over could mean that he was taking things/artifacts from one dimension through a door way into another which could have negative affects along the quantum continuum which would explain why your help was needed because you understand these things well.. and the people that were running towards you were running to get behind you so that you could face the situation at hand...I'm seeing that it was a large dark mass of some sort i don't know if it was dark matter or a dark entity you had to deal with....I get images almost like a DVD playing in my mind as to what happens almost as a third party in that affect ...I seem to have that ability to travel to that moment in time to replay so to speak only if permission is allowed very important ...
As the people run past you I see you standing in the middle of the street starring at this dark mass which is rather large and growing in the distance passing through or in front of some reddish brown brick buildings..Id say about 50 to 60 ft above the ground just pas the tops of the buildings on the left and right ...Kinda like a portal is opening up....but the over all situation is not a good one...and it has to do with this person" taking things over" ....well that's all I have weather its correct to you or not let me know ...

And the fact that your spiritual friend was there legitimatizes the situation as more on the real side ...than just a fantasy dream.....from what I heard from dream experts

Also from my experiences in other dimension I always get chastised for touching picking up moving carrying artifacts objects which always seem to be laying around everywhere ...its like a big no no why? i don't know yet...space and time and dimensional shifting ..I'm still contemplating on these things...so taking things from one dimension to another could be bad..if that's what that means...
perhaps you can explain some more about it

[kaketsh]

I'll try to get deeper into this subject but right now i dont remember the whole dream so vididly. The explanations you shared are very interesting as they might fill in the blanks that i have regarding the dream. Also they are connected to some dreams i had before, the dark matter in particular.
I had dreams in which this dark matter appeared out of nowhere, to the surprise of everyone. It has these possessing properties and everyone in my dreams runs away from it. They want to avoid touching it because it will takem over. There was no visual/conscious reference in this dream to the dark matter though. I even had a dream once in which (sorry things might get confused here, it was a long time ago) me and a team of people were exploring some ancient ruins, then i remember i recieved a cd from a spaceship with my mission briefing . It explained that ishould face the dark matter and protect the people from it. It was percieved as a galactic-(or more)-wide threat. I think that the dark matter should not be feared, it should be understood and ways of dealing with it should be developed.
Another funny thing is when i had this dream (with body switching), my friend also had a dream in which i appeared as a different person, in a different body. She didn't recognise me but then i said something she knew and she realized that it was me.

Interesting thing with this "sorry no artifacts for you" situation I on the contrary had dreams in which a UFO came down here in my backyard and they brought me a HiFi Just imagine my disappointment in the morning when i couldn't find it ;-)

[ivey]

Lol maybe its there ...just in a different vibration ....this realm vibrates weird.. low then fluctuates in different spots on the planet things materialize and then dissipate vortex opens, closes all over the planet maybe that's why this place is so popular destination for life ...things just end up here sometimes....from other dimensions space and time ....how the hell do we find a Rolex watch that carbon dates back ...what was it ? 10,000 years they said ...I cant remember but something is up with all of this and the battle for earth still wages on .......

[ivey]

Thanks for sharing I know this dark ness as the sic-ness...This dark matter is a type of artificial intelligence created long long time ago by ? i don't know ..but i do know but I dont want to speculate on that at this time until I have further conformation.....
This artificial Entity is not ordained to exist by the creator ....
it consumes or like you said controls the life that it comes into contact with like a possession
but it just doesn't possess ...it splices its self with the individual on the molecular scale with your soul ...so when you look at a persons soul or ora it looks dirty grayish black mixed with white light.... this is called the Sickness... or sic-ness ...there are many names for it even in religion ..the devil,darkness evil which is a more primitive name for it....but like you said ...understanding it is the first step.....the sic-ness ....I actually had a flash back memory a long while ago about 5 years ago ... the sic-ness was a something like a epidemic that was spreading all throughout Sacred Creation..like you said in your dream on a massive scale....the byproduct of the sic-ness - your soul becomes totally consumed or like the Borg on star trek assimilated...so you in fact loose your connection to the Creator... at that point becomes a totally different being that the creator has not ordained to exist .....but as we would look at it as evil really is ....something we barley can comprehend...this is something far worse than a fallen angel .....If it really was created by a fallen angel no one knows at this point of the origin or how it came into being ....the composition of it is clear though after some study of its affects ...its really dangerous ........One symptom.....of the sic-ness.....a Evil Uncontrolled Laffter out burst ...as if the individual has no control over them selves I see it up close everyday everywhere ....second The Eyes are Void Dark Black ...there is no ora or light ....we all have a ora just some of us keep it shaded because we don't realize it..and once consumed it takes over with its agenda to consume all sacred creation .....
This Entity is the culprit to all of humanity's affliction of all time its self....

[kaketsh]

It's hard to talk about these entities (or entity ?) because all i can give is information that comes from nowhere. I mean i dont really know how and why i know some things i know. I can't be sure if what i say is accurate or not so forgive me.

Here is what i know.
There were 2 known origin points, a meteorite and biosynthesis experimentation. It's possible that the meteorite was found and a group of investigators managed to take it to the lab for testing. What they found out (mostly by accident and wildfire like situations) is that this substance/entity is an entity of it's own. All infected had personality changes, mutations on a smaller or bigger scale. As the entity took over, the exposed revealed some of the information that might or might not be valid. They revealed that all infected are connected with a hive mind. The entity that lives in them is very ancient. Most probably it comes from another universe and the substance that we see is a spore. The entity requires a host, its behavior is viral, predatory. According to the testimony of the infected - they were once a powerful race and they conquered the whole world they knew. Then something happened, like a huge cataclysm or maybe it was Creators will that forced them to abandon their homes. This spore was their last chance to survive the transuniversal migration.

This sounds all like a story and for me its a story. I can't prove or disprove it. I know that the entity was depicted in various movies like X Files. Some of the things you say match my version.
I think the entity leaves human soul intact as it can't reach that level. What it can do is sever the link to the soul or mislead the mind.
You mentioned borg... this is very interesting and makes me think... what is the connection of these entities and synthetic borg like beings ? Are they the same ? I think not but im not sure. I think there is more than one connection, maybe some of the spore bio makeup was used as a starting material for synthesis ? Geez... i feel like a blind man walking through a dark room. It's very puzzling for me. There are some things that must be resolved here : Lucifer's rebellion, synthetic beings, Greys, spores. They are all connected, i just dont know in what way.

[ivey]

In some way that all of the Micro biologists are getting killed

[kaketsh]

Do you have any reference to this ? Any links ? Cuz i havent heared that before. It's possible that some of them don't make _someone_ feel comfortable or... if that's the case they disappear and do their research elsewhere under a different name if they were good. Still if you provide some good reference it would cast some light on it.